我也有围兜
l have a bib too.
我记得告诉过贝斯太太
l do remember telling Mrs. Best
就快结束了
that it would all be over soon.
那是众所周知的事
But everyone knew that.
艾伦
Ellen
你母亲曾要求你帮助她脱离痛苦吗
did your mother ever ask you to help her out of her pain?
是的 我每天都喂她吃药
Mm-hmm. Yeah, l gave her her medication every day.
不
No.
你母亲是否曾请求你
Did your mother ever ask you
帮助结束她的生命
to help her take her life?
如果是她 我可以保证没有人
lf she did, Ellen, l can say with some assurance no one in this office–
我并没有帮助我母亲结束她的生命
l did not help my mother take her life.
最后那晚你父亲在哪里
Where was your father on that last night?
他有课
He had a class.
她睡着后他才回来的
He didn’t come home until she was already sleeping.
乔治 是的
George. – Yeah.
你回来的真早 课被取消了
You came home so early. – They cancelled my class.
嗨 漂亮女孩
Hi, you pretty girl.
有想我吗
Did you miss me?
不
Oh, no.
我想和乔治说话
l want to talk to George now.
你喂过她了吗
Did you feed her?
没有人该那样活着
No one should have to live like that.
没有人
No one.
妈妈也这么说
Mom said that.
她是对的
She was right.
嘿
Hey.
我做好桌面了
l finished the table.
我爱你 艾丽
Love you, Ellie.
我爱你
l love you.
我知道
l knew that.
我一直都知道
l always knew that.
保重 亲爱的
Take care, sweetie.
艾
El?
嗨
Hey. – Hi.
嗨
Hi.
很抱歉
l’m so sorry.
我不知道说什么好
l don’t know what else to say.
我很抱歉
l’m so sorry.
你还好吗
How are you?
真的 好的
Yeah. You okay?
从没想到我会那么想念一个人
Never knew l could miss someone so much.
天啊
Oh, God.
我知道 我也想你
l know. l missed you too.
我知道这不是谈话的好时机 但是
l know this isn’t really a good time to talk, but
你知道 当你准备好
you know, when you’re ready, we should–
我们应该计划一下今年的事
we should figure out what we’re going to do this year, you know.
你不认为吗 乔丹 发生了许多事
Don’t you think? -You know, Jordan, a lot has happened
是你不明白的
that you just don’t understand.
很抱歉 我想你也无法明白
And l’m sorry, but l don’t think you can understand.
什么 你在说什么
What? What are you talking about?
谢谢你能来 艾伦
Thank you for coming. – El?
艾伦
Ellen
你母亲死于吗♥啡♥过量
your mother died of an overdose of morphine.
你能否解释一下吗
Can you think of any possible explanation for that?
你想你父亲可能会知道吗
Do you think your father might have some idea how it might have happened?
我真的不认为他会知道
l really don’t know how he could.
像我说的 他回来时她已睡着了
Like l said, he didn’t come home until she was sleeping.
你和你父亲谈过此事吗
Have you discussed any of this with your father?
没有
No.
葬礼一结束我就回纽约了
Well, only because l went back to New York right after the funeral.
我从那时就没和他说过话
And l really haven’t talked to him since then.
我很忙 有新的工作
l’ve been really busy. New job.
你又开始写东西了
You’re writing again? – Mm-hmm.
《村之声》的专栏作家
Feature writer for the Voice.
恭喜你
Hmph. Congratulations.
谢谢
Thanks.
我可能会找你父亲谈谈
l may want to speak to your father.
无论如何
Anyway
谢谢你
thank you.
不客气
Sure.
对于你所失去的 我很抱歉
l’m sorry for your loss.
谢谢
Thank you.
你来多久了
How long have you been here?
没多久
Not long.
我可以闻到泥土中紫丁香和蜀葵的香味
l can smell the lilacs and the hollyhocks under the soil.
你母亲也那么说过
Your mother used to say she could do the same thing.
今天如何
How’d it go today?
还好吧
All right, l guess.
他也会找你谈话的
He’s gonna want to talk to you too.
艾伦 我想要你知道我敬佩你的勇气
Ellen, l just want you to know how much l admire your courage.
我希望是我做的
And l wish l’d done it.
什么
What?
我希望我做了
l wish l had.
我会的
l would’ve.
没办法
Couldn’t.
爸 我没有做
Dad, l didn’t do it.
不是我 我还以为
l didn’t do it. l thought that–
我一直以为是你
All this time, l thought that it was you.
天啊 不
Oh, my God. – No.
不可能 天啊
lt’s impossible. – Oh, my God.
她那么无助 那么脆弱
She was too helpless. She was too frail.
那些药
The pills.
她怎么能 天啊
How could sh–? Jesus.
艾伦 我
Ellen, l–
我爱你的母亲
l love your mother.
我想我将永远爱着她
l don’t suppose l’m ever going to stop loving her.
因为她可以做任何事
But because she can do anything
照顾家 照顾我们
run the house, run our lives
把一切都弄得又美丽又温暖
keep everything so beautiful and so warm
我只想到她对我的意义
l only thought of what she meant to me.
我的灵感女神
My muse.
我美丽的妻子
My lovely wife.
是我拥有的最真实的
My one true thing.
当然是她
Of course she did it.
还有谁有如此的力量
Who else would’ve had the strength?
不行 你得挖的深一些
No, you have to go deeper than that.
要挖4寸才够
You have to go four inches.
4寸 是的
Four? – Yeah.
确保它们不在雪中枯萎
Yeah, so that they don’t rot in the snow, or so that the animals don’t get them.
或被动物摧毁 每株相隔4寸以免根部纠结
And then four inches apart so that the roots don’t tangle
他们看起来很美
and they’ll just look prettier.
这些是什么植物
What are these plants?
水仙花
Daffodils.
这是水仙花 是的
These are daffodils? – Yeah.